I am looking back on the week from Friday, January 2 through Friday, January 9 mainly because there were a couple of themes to the week. The first theme was I had trouble getting to sleep. On January 2, I received my Kindle Fire HDX (7") and stayed up late getting it up to date and playing with it. I had intended to go to my peer group meeting but stayed at work too late and missed it. Saturday, I spent a good portion of the morning catching up on sleep. I ran late Saturday (or early Sunday, from 11:30 PM to midnight). Sunday, I just had trouble sleeping. I am not sure if I had just reset my internal clock or was not looking forward to work. I was tired Monday, stayed at work late, and when I came home, I took a nap. I woke up from the nap with energy and couldn't get to sleep. I was stuck at work late on Tuesday and missed my Tuesday group meeting. Originally, I had planned to miss my meeting because I had to get up early for work on Wednesday for a committee meeting. To make sure I got to bed Tuesday evening, I took half an Ambien. It got me to sleep, but I think I ended up waking up a few times during the night. After getting that one night of going to bed at a decent time, I continued the pattern of leaving work late, going to bed late, and not getting as much sleep as I wanted. I wanted to go for a run Wednesday but was too tired and thought it was too cold and wet out. Friday, we went out of my brother's birthday celebration and Saturday I ran again.
The other pattern I noticed was consistently staying late at work to get things done and not being able to get done the things I intended to get done. I couldn't stay late at work on Wednesday, as I had another group meeting I had to leave work early (for me) for. We had new hires I had to do extra work for and stay late for (so that what I was doing wouldn't interrupt their training). I definitely got work accomplished, it just wasn't the work I planned on doing. Now I'm hoping the coming week goes better, is less hectic, is more ordered, and that I make more meetings. If things don't go as planned, I hope I can see to apply the right perspective to it. Viewing these tasks as things I have to do, as unpleasant interruptions, and as being forced to do something when I should be going home or sleeping is not as effective a point of view as things I am doing because I choose to do them and am making things smoother for me, my coworkers, and the company. I shouldn't view them as things that shouldn't have happened as much as opportunities to learn and be better next time. There are things we need to accept, things we can effect, and things we can change, which I tend to think of as the world in general, things in our sphere of influence, and our outlook or thoughts respectively. So working on myself provides the most benefit for the amount of effort put in, assuming the work is to the right end and the externality (thing outside the self) is harder to change or unchangeable.
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