In general, I don't like myself very much. There are certain things I like about myself, but on the whole, I would like to be a different, better person. I don't feel like I do enough or make enough of a contribution to society. I don't think I am creative enough. I don't have a great social life. I am not in a relationship. I am not a strong believer in a religion. There are a couple of philosophies I relate to, though. I don't think I have given back enough. I haven't defined a larger meaning in my life and therefore haven't followed one. I don't think my interests are strong enough and I don't feel I follow them with vigor. In other words, I don't have a strong passion. I have likes and dislikes though. I like books and like to read but don't feel I read enough. I succumb to my emotions more than I would like. I don't have an anger or violence problem, but I do get angry and impatient at times. I don't think I am particularly attractive.
On a societal level, I am probably a contributor and not a drawer, but I suppose I feel I could be doing more and making more of an impact. I have a job that could be considered a career. I believe I am pretty good at what I do. Most people I work for would definitely say that I am good at what I do and have a good work ethic.
To conclude for the moment, I don't think the problem is the person I am as much as how I think about myself. That is the reason I am going through this exercise. I believe there are things I need to work through about my thinking. Were I to meet someone like myself, I don't think I would hold them in a negative light. I think I overestimate others, compare myself to how I think others are, and underestimate myself. I think I need to change the story and perspective. I need to think of the things I like about myself, give myself credit for being able to change, consider myself as changing and improving, then think of the things I want to change and improve them. But how?
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